i hate that i am paralyzed by my perfectionism.

i cannot even complete a blog post about something substantive because it is so far from polished.

i am such a verbal processor, that this written processing is hardly cathartic.


anyway, more thoughts on the way, but let it be known,

"I do not want to be in full-time vocational (especially pastoral or evangelistic) ministry
and
I am scared that God is going to make me do it anyway."

And now that I said it out loud, I am doomed.

oh, the pressure of being a WASP (White, American, Sexy, Protestant).

I'm going to go on a run now. Aaron Michael Green, of Brea, California, and I are running a marathon in April and a half-marathon in February.